Tough Times

I didn't do a post last week deliberately.
On Thursday I had Grandpas funeral, but it wasn't just that day that was sad.
I went down to Kent on Wednesday, having fun on the underground on my journey down. Dad and A picked me up from the station and we all drove back to my Grandparents house together.
It didn't feel right being there without them. Don't think it helped that the house was practically empty.
We went out to dinner in the Chinese restaurant that we always used to go to with them, even though it is crap, and raised a toast to both of them.
Thursday itself was not great. Even though the funeral only actually lasted for about half an hour, the fact that there were only 15 people there and the recognition that it was the end of an era, seemed to make it a whole lot worse... Which is probably why I drank a fair bit afterwards.
Friday meant leaving Kent. I will never go back to that house. They lived there my whole life, and it is so full of memories.
We left with Grandma and Grandpa's chairs facing each other in the sitting room. It was like they were could have been sitting in those chairs, sharing a joke over how deaf Grandpa was...
I suppose grief didn't really hit me until we got back to the Cotswolds. The emotions then got even higher over dinner when all my other stresses seemed to catch up with me.
I didn't really want to come back up to Uni yesterday  I just felt so down, and I don't suppose that the arrival of my step-sister helped.

But I am up now. 3 weeks till Christmas holidays and I have so much to do!
I have an important presentation on Thursday that I cant wait to get out the way.. I get all giggly when I have to do them, and being a group presentation it has to be 20 mins long... Lord help me!
I also have to get the primary research chapter done for my dissertation, and this other commodities essay, so that they can be handed in before I leave on the 14th.
AND I have to complete and send in the GBOF application this week!
So its all go go go really. Have to fit in a social life somewhere as well... I know that these assignments are important, but I need to see my friends too!

Talked to Ma about Christmas meals this morning. I'm secretly getting a bit excited for the festive season. Only a week to go until I can start being Christmassy!