The night I posted my last post was the night that Grandpa died.
I got the phone call from my Dad at 7.30 and was leaving the flat by 10. I just didn't want to be alone.
Even though I am enormously sad, I know am fully in the knowledge that he was in control until the end. That night was the night that he admitted to my father that he couldn't cope anymore, and then he went.
The funeral isn't for another couple of weeks, which is unfortunate as it will be a double hit of emotion.
However, Uni is being really understanding about the whole situation, and being my last year, they are fully behind me.
I am back up North now after being home for a few days.
Even though I now have to spend all my time in the library (I have handed in one of my 3/4 essays today) and I have no money to my name, I really wouldn't be anywhere else. I have most of my friends around me and I'm exactly where I need to be right now.
Realised when I was home that I have completely grown out of the small town I grew up in, and have taken the decision that when I finish at the end of the year, I wont be going back. Not that I will be staying up North either, but I need to move out, for my own good!
Its been a challenging few weeks really.... made me realise some pretty important things as well.
Just over 5 weeks till we break up for Christmas: so little time to do so much work!
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