Today, as you all know, is the last day of 2012. So far I have spent most of it travelling back up North. This was not the original plan, however due to..... unexpected circumstances... and with the understanding of my friend that I let down, I had to find something else to do tonight. Consequently I am gate-crashing my housemates part, and will be seeing the New Year with them!
Apart from not spending tonight celebrating with one of my oldest friends, things could not have work out better really! I was starting to go crazy being in my home town. Just 2 weeks there and I had seen everyone I wanted to and spent more than enough time with my mother. I am so glad to be getting back to my life! (Also need to go back so that I actually start revising for my ever approaching exam..)
So I guess I should be reflecting on this year and how it has treated me: the good, the bad, what I have learnt, etc. I have been thinking about this for the last couple of days. However, every day I learn something new or a valuable lesson and every day has its good and its bad moments. I have decided not to contemplate in depth about what has happened this year and leave it there, in the past.
Instead I am only looking forward to the future, and when I say the future, I mean tomorrow. Even though I will need to plan somethings in advance (like finding somewhere to live when I graduate, finding a job to save up money, etc), I am very happy living in the unknown: not knowing whats going to happen from one minute to the next; living in the moment. Someone I care about deeply taught me the importance of this frame of mind.
It is true though, I dont know whats going to happen. So why would I waste my time worrying about it? I'm a great believer in Fate: what will be will be. Everything will be alright in the end, and its its not alright, then its not the end.
As a result, my New Years resolutions are not like most peoples (losing weight, work harder, etc.). Mine is to keep on living, taking every day as it comes and enjoy every moment of it.
I will only live once, and I've wasted so much of my life already by living in fear and being who I was expected to be.
No more.
2013: Bring. It. On.
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